Trust.

Trust is a bittersweet concept. Either you trust or you don't. I no longer have the ability to trust the people surrounding me. When I do trust, it ends up biting me in they butt. I no longer want to trust. Trust only brings hurt and pain. I garuantee that trusting will only kill you in the end. I, out of all people, should know this.

Finding The Me In Me.

In this world, there are different kinds of people. There are the business people, the people who go with the flow, the people who keep their priorities straight, and theirs people who just wanna have fun. And then, there's me. I'm one of those people who is lost in this world. I can't seem to figure out who I am. But yet, I am only a teenager. I know what you're probably thinking. "Amber. You're too young to be worrying about who you are." But I do worry; all the time. I can't quite seem to keep my priorities straight. There are different types of people I want to be. One day I will be a Bella Swan type girl, whose going through the day to just get by. Other days, I'm like a Miley Cyrus type girl, where I just want to party and have fun. And then there are the days where I'm just in a really bad mood, so on those days, it's best that you just don't talk to me. Anyways, the 2 years I've been a teenager have been really hard. I mean, I have to go to school everyday to face the evil Katrina. And then I have to go home and be pressured by my parents to be a good child. Sometimes, I just can't win.

New Moon

Dear Blog,



Everyone keeps asking me why I'm on Team Jacob. I always give them my simple answer. I know exactly how Jacob feels. Jacob is in love with Bella but Bella doesn't love Jacob like Jacob wants her to. Bella loves Jacob like a brother. Plus, Bella loves Edward. See and I feel like that with Samuel. I love him more than a brother. But he only loves me as a sister. And he's always in love with someone else. Everytime I try to get close to being with him, he finds a new girlfriend. That's why I'm on Team Jacob.

I Am Thirteen Going On Fourteen...

Dear Blog,

I only have another quarter of school left. Things have gotten better than they were. I can look at Katrina now and if it's a good day, I'll even talk to her although we aren't friends. I think that from all of this, I've gained a lot of knowledge. People still make fun of me, which I don't really mind. I've learned how to laugh with them when they are laughing at me. Nobody's perfect and I out of all people should know this. When people in my class are making fun of someone, I have to courage to stand up to them. My little brother doesn't understand why I stand up for people who have made fun of me. He's so young and naive. I stand up for them cause I know how they feel. I know how it feels to be the one who people target. I know how it feels to be made fun of. I mean, I WAS made fun of on a daily basis for 4 weeks of my life. I think I would know how it feels.

I'm Gonna Be FAMOUS!

Dear Blog,

I thought it was just going to be another ordinary Wendesday night. I thought wrong. An advertisement came on the radio talking about Talent Scouts that were in town and looking for talent. I called the number and they talked to my mom a little bit. My mom told me that I have an audition on Sunday. I was so excited that I, literally, went bouncing off the walls. We kept thinking up possiblities that would happen if this acting thing really did work out for me. I could guest star on shows like Hannah Montana, Sonny with a Chance, Wizards of Waverly Place or even be in the last Twilight movie. I'm so happy and excited that this career option has come up for me. Ever since I was a little girl, I wanted so badly to be an actress. I was and still am a drama queen. I could exaggerate anything, even the smallest things. I hope this works out for me. I'll keep you posted.